I need to get my life together and commit to writing everyday. I know it doesn't have to be a novel...it can even be shorter than a paragraph. I just need to get all these thoughts out somehow.
Update on MS: My body built up SUPER antibodies to Betaseron. So, my decision comes down to Copaxone, Tysabri or nothing. Here's a quick overview of what I'm thinking: Though Copaxone is administered through injections, I'm used to giving myself injections now- so while it's a pain (literally), I can deal with it. Why deal with it? Well, I need Tysabri (the other drug) to get some more years under its belt. It's been out for less than five years and it's only side effect is a fatal brain disease that 1/1000 people can potentially develop. Statistics don't have much of a positive effect on me though because I've always seen myself in the minority of the statistic. For example, not many people get Multiple Sclerosis...but I did. Not many people build up antibodies to interferon...but I did. Not many people make bad decisions and get caught...but I do. So...I'm not a big fan of odds. I think I'm going to deal with the injections for a little longer while Tysabri gets more research. MS is not fatal and it is already proven to lead to disability, so why, at this age, would I put myself at risk for fatality and higher risk of disability? Just my thoughts...
You may be thinking, "you're basically asymptomatic, why not just avoid medication?" Well, after speaking with God one-on-one, we've agreed that He'll take care of me if I take care of myself. That's why I've been working-out three times a week, taking my vitamins (for once) and finally doing some research on this thing called MS.
As for an Internship Update: Let's just say I'm learning a lot about corporate America...it's been a month now and I'm starting to get the hang of everything: the corporate mentality, writing adaptability and I've even mastered Microsoft Sharepoint. However, I've also learned that having a thick skin is one of the most important variables in the equation of "making it." That's taken me a little bit longer to develop (what can I say? I'm a sensitive person).
So, I've really been thinking about the whole "divine purpose thing" lately and I've made some pretty deep conclusions. @RevRunWisdom said the other day, "Your talents are God's gift to you. What you do with those talents is your gift to God." After reading that piece of wisdom, I started thinking about my own talents and how I could use them. Then I started thinking more deeply about it. It's funny how my greatest experiences in life have come from chances that I took. These chances were never ones I was comfortable with, but I ended up gaining more fulfillment from it in the end (and inspiring more people, too).
With that said...let's just say that I'm planning to do something BIG, very soon. It's a plan to basically showcase myself and my talents to hundreds (maybe thousands) of people while also speaking out about my walk with MS and the wisdom I've gained from it. I'm not completely comfortable OR sure that I can carry-out this plan (and I'm VERY scared)- but that's what I'm excited about. I'm planning to put myself OUT of my comfort zone to hopefully get closer to my own divine purpose. Stay tuned...
Ask your doctor about Avonex, that is the injection my father takes, it is once a week. He has been on that one for years. We miss you and it sounds like you are learning a lot about the "real world." Fear can drive us the same way it can make us hesitate before taking on a large task. It is up to us to decide which way we will allow fear to affect us! Good luck with your big decision
ReplyDeleteThanks Naima! Avonex is actually an interferon too, so that one won't work for me (I wish it would though, cuz once a week injections are much better than once a day).
ReplyDeleteI'm going to be contacting you soon if I actually decide to go through with this decision...you'll hear from me soon!